Today would be my dad's 66th birthday. I am having a really hard time expressing how I feel right now. I don't understand why he had to die, why it had to happen so fast, or why he doesn't get to see his kids, and grandkids, grow up. The last time I saw him, I couldn't speak. I couldn't tell him that I love him. I couldn't say goodbye, I couldn't even cry. I miss him so much!