I'm writing about this on here because I'm not really ready to talk about it.
We had an ultrasound today and the baby no longer has a heartbeat. It looks like he passed away about 3 weeks ago. I will be going to the hospital today to deliver him. I am not sure how long it will take as I have never actually delivered a baby before (2 C-Sections). But the nurse said it will be a quick recovery because he is so small.
In all honesty, I have had a feeling that something wasn't right with this pregnancy from the beginning. I tried to avoid this feeling by acting really excited, talking a lot, and making jokes about trying to have a "New Year baby." I really have known all along.
Anyway, I don't really know what else to say right now. I will try to post again soon with more information (If I can go longer than 5 minutes without bursting into tears.)